automatic writing

this past week or two has been kind of rough. i’ve had an incredibly busy week or two which included me allowing certain things to become prioritized over my MA. last week i made it clear in my accountable 3’s session that i wasn’t able to complete what goals i set myself, and that i wanted to do better with myself. i took some time to reflect on what goals i’ve set myself over the past 2 weeks, and one of the first things mentioned was automatic writing. i’ve dabbled with this technique in the past, and previously have used techniques surrounding automatic writing, but i feel like i haven’t explored it’s full potential in a sense of brainstorming new ideas and allowing it to develop my practice and paintings.

this was the first exercise i did with automatic drawing, i had a lot of issues with this personally. i felt like i was allowing myself to care about what was happening aesthetically. and that it felt biased in some way. i really wanted and want to avoid this, as i do believe to an extent that my practice is not 100% organic, especially when it comes to my paintings.

i started looking up very basic exercises on how others automatic write, and their uses for this technique, i used this article to help me work out how i can do this best.

https://www.meldstudios.com.au/thoughts/automatic-writing-exercise-help-efficient-writer

from what i got from this post. i should close my eyes, as this can help remove that ability to control and see what i am doing, and what it looks like. as well as trying to write quicker than what i can, and that if i think of another word or thing, i should move to the next word or thought. this worked great.

for this i first of all wanted to accept and understand this is my first time doing this, and that i cannot expect it to be amazing, and voice my exact intentions. but all things aside, this is really good results for my first exercise.

i really like this because from how the article suggests, they don’t pull away from the fact of writing words, for me the idea of automatic writing there was almost an expectation in my head that words would come out of me practically scribbling, and that this would be my subconscious. but there’s an almost fairy-tale expectation in assuming that this will 100% happen for me. instead, this exercise was understanding that words would appear in a similar way to how words do in word association exercises? the first thing i think of is the rorschach test, and how subject’s perceptions of inkblots are recorded and analyzed using psychological interpretation. to me this is very similar in ways to word association.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rorschach_test

anywho. i see a lot of ‘the’ and ‘you’, which i don’t believe is significant enough or important to reflect on. i actually feel really good today, especially with me getting part of a project complete which was in the wood works for a longtime. so i’m not expecting any magical or extravagant words to appear in this exercise.

automatic writing on paintings

psychosis; studies